I’m an extreme kind of person. I don’t know how to like something a bit or do a bit of something. If I’m in I’m in.
Recently I threw myself into something at full speed. My medical speciality application. I went full steam ahead chasing my dream as if nothing could stop me. I couldn’t guarantee that I would get in but I dared to try.
And I honestly think that that is half of the mental battle. In the process of applying for this job I was told so many times “oh that’s really competitive”. And the speciality I was applying for IS competitive. It’s not untrue, but the undertone of that comment was often quite negative. Discouraging even. Once I decided that this was the only thing I wanted to do, I blocked this out. If I didn’t I really think that I would have been paralysed. Too scared to even try.
Later I would choose to reply to this comment with “yes, but I’m also a competitive applicant. I make up that competitive pool too”. And it’s true. For everything that is “competitive” firstly, YOU are also part of that. Secondly, someone HAS to get the job so why wouldn’t it be you?! I put that to the side.
That wasn’t my priority because that wasn’t my decision. All I could really impact was me and how I performed on the day and the things that I could do to try my best to get my dream job. To waste mental energy on anything else is unnecessary baggage and when you’re trying to climb you gotta drop that baggage or you’ll never get anywhere.
I guess the point that I’m trying to make is nothing ventured nothing gained. To give yourself a chance you have to try and to try is to be brave.
On the day of my interview, when my portfolio had finally come together, I cried! Not because anything awful happened but because I had even gotten this far. I was proud of myself and whatever the outcome almost didn’t matter because I had tried my best. At the end of the day that is really all that counts. Yes I would have been disappointed to not get the job I wanted but the biggest tragedy is to not try.
I’m talking about chasing a dream job here but the same rule applies to anything in life that is a bit scary to go for. That thing you want to do but you convince yourself you’re not quite good enough yet. You just have to be a bit brave and got for it. Brene Brown (if you don’t know who this is, google her, she’s amazing) introduced me to this quote below by Roosevelt. To me it’s about trying. Being brave. Daring. It’s not easy but the rewards are so sweet. When you don’t try, you don’t enter the arena and you fail yourself already. I almost did that to myself, but a mustard seed of faith and a pinch of bravery and a why the hell not me attitude, helped me get past that.
It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.”
I’ll be starting training in Clinical Radiology in a few months and if I didn’t dare greatly, I would be either starting nothing or starting a job I never really wanted to do. There is nothing special about me that isn’t in anyone else. I just gave myself a chance by trying and if I didn’t get in first time round, I would have given myself a chance again.
I hope this post spurs you on to think of an area in your life where you could dare greatly.
Until the next post,